Thursday, March 10, 2011

I Saw the World Turn White

Nothing special to say. Just want to post here before I forget.

No good song ideas right now.
Well, except one.
As stated before, I refuse to write it.

I keep listening to my music.
All the time.
Not a lot else to do.

I wonder what they think of me.
All I do is sit around in my room with my curtains closed and my headphones on.
I get my homework done so how can they complain?

Still feel awful. It has to get better soon. It always does.
Maybe not this time.

Still wearing a smile. Everything's okay. Just nod politely.

I don't want anyone to worry.
I don't want to go to the hospital again.

Don't worry.

It will get better.
I hope.


  1. *sends internet hug* Indeed, it does have to get better. It can only get so bad before it gets better. Try listening to stupidly happy songs sometime, that's how I make myself feel better when I'm feeling down. Good examples are: Sunshine, Lollipops, and Rainbows Sugar Sugar by the Archies and Lollipop by The Chordettes.

    ~Eternally Anonymous~

  2. I'm sorry
    Sorry that this has happened

  3. Even if he does end up getting to you, he can't take away everything you've given us. You'll never be forgotten. Whoever or whatever he is, I doubt he'll ever know such love and warmth. Pitiable creature.

  4. Don't want to go to that place *again*...? While I would normally want to know more about that, I respect you enough not to ask. Unless you want to talk about it of course...

    I see your mask now, and I know that you need it to give you strength. It's something that I can really relate to, I have one too. Well... I'm a more extreme case, but nonetheless I can still understand where you're coming from.

    We who shroud ourselves in false strength lack the strength of mind and heart that others bear. My only advice is to keep that mask, nurture it and reinforce it.

    And maybe someday... The masks we bear might just stop being fake.

  5. Sozu,
    I apologize if that's not a variation of your name you like, it does however sound much too cute for me not to use.

    I just wanted to say, though I'm sure you've heard it a thousand times before from these other fans of your music and followers of your blog, I find your music to be truly beautiful.

    It has something that so much music these days doesn't, it has pieces of you in it. When I listen to these compositions of yours I can literally feel the songs deep within my chest. I can feel masked sadness overlayed with hope, I can feel sweet melancholy and nostalgia of long past days. You convey emotion expertly.

    I'm sorry that you have this sense of self-doubt, and that that masked girl tries to belittle your work, but your work touches me and comforts me with my favorite of emotions. I hope that maybe the next time you feel doubtful of your ability you may remember this comment and the fact that your music along with providing me enjoyment also keeps me safe from our mutual demon.

    And finally I have a small request while waiting for your next bout of righteous inspiration, as such things can't be rushed. I'd be extremely grateful if along with your other tickboxes below each post you could add another titled "beautiful" so I, and these other souls concerned for your well, being could properly express by sheer volume how your music touches us.