Saturday, December 4, 2010

More whining and a present

Have I mentioned that I hate school? Because I really do.

I've always felt like the odd one out. The weird girl that always sits at the back of the room. It's not like I'm an outcast or anything. I have friends (well...a friend), I just...I dunno. I don't like going out of my way to talk to people, then I get mad when no one goes out of their way to talk to me. How much sense does that make?

It's only gotten worse though. Now that I look back on the past week, I've noticed that I barely talked to anyone. I'm not even really sure what the heck I was supposed to be learning either. I know, it seems weird that I'm just noticing this now. These past few weeks I've had a lot of deja vu and "did I really do that?" moments. Naturally I think my lack of sleep it to blame. Still, I always seem to have a sense that I'm forgetting something. Like, there's something that I should be doing that I'm not. It's more annoying than anything. I stay up late into the night, just trying to write more songs. I make so many things that I never finish. Nothing sounds right to me. But I keep trying. I don't know what else to do if I stop.

Other than that I guess I've just been...bored. Not depressed, but just kinda "bleh". Nothing but music really interests me right now. My parents keep trying to cheer me up and stuff, but somethings I just want to be left alone. Arrg, here I am complaining again. What do you care anyway?

However, something did happen this morning that got my attention. And not exactly in a good way. Early this morning I found this on my front porch:

I laughed when I saw it. If this is someone's idea of a joke, it's awesome. If the intention was to "scare" me, you're going to have to try harder than that. Yes I know what it says, no I'm not telling. Figure it out for yourself why don't you?

Usotsuki wa Dare?
Who's the Liar?


  1. I care very much miss! Now, when I first saw the note I thought it was from some young admirer, but since you have pointed out that you are both able to translate it and consider it a threat (however mild), I am concerned.

    I would consider showing your friend this, and if this person keeps leaving such notes, tell your family and a teacher you trust.

    I hope Sunday is a better day for you, I truly do.

  2. Uh. That's freaky. I see a lot of hiragana and kanji, but I can't say I understand it all. Newbie Japanese-learner and all.

    Anyway, it kinda worries me. <:T Watch your back, okay? I really hope things get better for you.

    Also, hi! I'm the one on Youtube who asked about the files for Slendy's Watching Me. (:

  3. Ha, you remind me of me when I was in school. Your attitude towards people, anyway.

    Urm...I'm intimidated by all the kanji/hiragana/katakana...whichever it is.

    I'll look the symbols up later.

  4. 嘘つきはだれ? ほそずくり. HeH hEH HEh. StAY SAfE NoW. DoN'T WaNt YoU GonE juSt YEt.

    1. I know I'm replying to a lot of your things but I'm just kind of curios about you.... Are you.... you-know-who.....?