I've always felt like the odd one out. The weird girl that always sits at the back of the room. It's not like I'm an outcast or anything. I have friends (well...a friend), I just...I dunno. I don't like going out of my way to talk to people, then I get mad when no one goes out of their way to talk to me. How much sense does that make?
It's only gotten worse though. Now that I look back on the past week, I've noticed that I barely talked to anyone. I'm not even really sure what the heck I was supposed to be learning either. I know, it seems weird that I'm just noticing this now. These past few weeks I've had a lot of deja vu and "did I really do that?" moments. Naturally I think my lack of sleep it to blame. Still, I always seem to have a sense that I'm forgetting something. Like, there's something that I should be doing that I'm not. It's more annoying than anything. I stay up late into the night, just trying to write more songs. I make so many things that I never finish. Nothing sounds right to me. But I keep trying. I don't know what else to do if I stop.
Other than that I guess I've just been...bored. Not depressed, but just kinda "bleh". Nothing but music really interests me right now. My parents keep trying to cheer me up and stuff, but somethings I just want to be left alone. Arrg, here I am complaining again. What do you care anyway?
However, something did happen this morning that got my attention. And not exactly in a good way. Early this morning I found this on my front porch:
I laughed when I saw it. If this is someone's idea of a joke, it's awesome. If the intention was to "scare" me, you're going to have to try harder than that. Yes I know what it says,
Usotsuki wa Dare?
Who's the Liar?